*humming something*

yes, i really am humming something. it's "crazy things i do" by sammie. i got frustrated in trying to find his song "do it for you", kaya yun. but now, i'm listening to "i will take you forever". i know, i know, i'm such a cheeseball 'cuz i'm listening to cheeseball songs. what can i do? if you don't have someone to be cheeseball-ed with, you will just find yourself being a cheeseball by listening to cheeseball-ed songs. haha!:) nabingi ka ba sa word na "cheeseball"?! sorry :) i don't wanna use the term "cheesy" or "sobrang cheesy talaga". gawd. for crying out loud, AKO NAMAN 'YUNG BINGING-BINGI SA LINE NA 'YUN. kadiri to death lang.:) anyway. one of my friends' boyfriend is coming back here in the Pi to propose to my friend :) OH MY GAWD! :) i can't tell it muna dito kase i may spoil everything, i would be the baduy-est person alive if that would happen just because i spilled it over here.:) kaya the kwento overload will be soon :) OH MY GAWD!:) that started my cheeseball-ness this night. receiving a message from my friend's boyfriend, asking for some help about the surprise :) grabe, i'm so kilig talaga :) PLS SAY YES :) hahaha :) i love that couple :)

ayun. i don't have anything with sense to say naman. i am so blank. i just wanna post something that is not twitter-ish.

i just wanna blog something. i don't wanna share any pics in this post. too lazy. and what's there to share naman db?! i mean, what pic naman will i share? nothing exciting with my life. grabe. how sad my life.

ayun. shiznitz, pangalawang "ayun" ko na yun ah. how lame.

teka, may tanong ako. ano ang ibig sabihin ng "midlife crisis"?

feeling ko kase i'm in a midlife crisis, tho i really don't know what it means. feeling ko lang naman.

weird.

randommmmmmmm.

last night, while i was watching my friends' band playing, one of my friends from school sat beside me and told me, "i didn't noticed, grad ka na pala noh...", i answered, "no i'm not, i stopped." her: "oh?! why?! you're working na di'ba?!" me: "uh-huh." her: "why?! you don't want to study na ba?!" me: "ayoko na mag-aral sa regular school" her: "what did your parents say?!" me: "as expected, ayaw nila. they don't get it eh." her: "why?! what do you want to do ba talaga?!" me: "marami eh. feeling nila kase di ko alam gusto ko. pero alam ko. and i know, i won't be able to do it when i'm in a regular school, when i'm with THIS school." her: "well i hope you made the right decision..." smiling genuinely and giving me a pat on the back.

"WELL I HOPE YOU MADE THE RIGHT DECISION..."

woahwa. that line was catchy.

i know she said that genuinely :) i know that girl :) she is too sweet for me to think if she added a little sarcasm there when she said that :) but no, knowing her, no :)

it made me think when i was already on my way home. WHOOPS! if you're thinking that maybe i was thinking that i did the wrong decision, that's not just a no, that would be a HELL NO! i haven't started anything with my dreams yet, so why would i say that i made the wrong decision?!

hay grabe... :|

ok. here's what i want to do: i wanna be a make-up artist and a stylist. that may sound like a hobby to you, but NO. i'm serious about it. i wanna be those two, in one :) I'M DEAD SERIOUS. no kidding. but my parents doesn't get that. for them, it's just a hobby. for them, it's non sense. for them, why would you waste too much money for something like a hobby?! "IT WOULD JUST GET YOU TO NOWHERE..."

how sad di'ba?! *sigh*

right now, i can't start taking any workshop 'cuz i'm still broke. yes, i have a job, a call-girl somewhere in makati, and yes, i can use the sweldo with the workshops sana, kaso i'm helping my brother. and it doesn't bother me naman helping him kase i love him to death. i love my brothers. i love my mom. i love them to death. :)

basta i promised myself na i would take a workshop for basic make-up before this year ends, para atleast di'ba?!

i'm just happy na there are still people who believes in me :) THANK YOU :)

please help me pray :)

i'm sleepy na. goodnight.